水变甜了,空气变清晰了,食物也有味道了。
人健康多了,气色变好了,心情开朗了,笑容也多了。
我头上好像多了个光环,每天太阳公公都在对我笑,天空还不停为我浮现美丽的彩虹。
停下脚步,感受生活,不同凡响。
这短暂的休息非常值得。
七天六夜的台北之旅只能用一个字 “糟“ 来形容。
我生病了。 这一连串的不幸事件,我都麻了。
本想抛开所有新加坡的一切尤其是工作,好好的玩一玩,
享受一番,怎知这不争气的我既然病倒在异乡。
又是感冒,流鼻涕,又是咳嗽,真的好辛苦。
我开始思考是不是时候应该休息了
- 放下所有的工作,管它什么美好前途,机会。
一次,就一次好好的疼惜自己。
你可能这么想 26 岁的我怎是说休息的时候。
就连我爸 51 岁了都没说要休息,我又有何资格呢!
不管怎样,我要调养身子,做回健康的我。
一定要活的开心,活的精彩。
2009 年 4 月 9 日
台北之旅让我静下心,好好的思考反省。
这场病可能是件好事,上天的安排,让我脑精动的慢一点,没有力气说话。
也没办法的只能专心和尽力使用我那迟钝的大脑。
就这样,我想通了很多事,也做了一个决定。
我决定暂时停学。
进修日文向来是我的兴趣,也因为是我喜爱的事情,
我想尽力搞好它,不想荒废课业,考取不理想的成绩。
停学的原因是我无法兼顾在艺术之家忙碌无休的工作和日文的课业。
在我做出决定之前,我基本上没有时间复习日文。
工作又时常要出国,所以日文课常常要请假,根本跟不上进度。
很痛的决定,计划赶不上变化,要做就得十全十美,不能半吊子。
不过,我会尽量自修,决不放弃。
2009 年 4 月 13 日
放假后第一天返回公司,心情有点复杂,
因为这天也是玲玲在公司的最后一天。
有许多不舍,有点感伤,但还是刻意压制自己的情绪。
毕竟我对这一连串的离别也习惯了。
外表冷酷的我不太喜欢在人群前失态。
有许多同事也依依不舍,不过大家还是送上最真诚的祝福。
细心的 Amnah 也聚集所有同事的留言,制作了一本告别玲玲 - 四年记送给她。
这一天也在失落的情况下给玲玲一个拥抱下结束。
2009 年 4 月 16 日
超紧张的。 这一天我向吴总经理提出我暂时在三个月里不想出国的要求。
因为医生建议我不要操劳,在新加坡休息。
为了我的健康,我只好乖乖听话。
拿出医生的信时,可吓坏吴总经理了。
他好像以为我想交上辞职信,我赶紧澄清。
就这样,我便不需要六月份到巴西公干了。
2009 年 5 月 19 日
好烦哦! 这累积的工作量,我恐怕不能应付。
压力非常大,我该怎么办呢!
没错,这的确是个很好发展的机会,不过这也不能超支过急,一步登天呀。
心里有许多不安,因为这公司总给我投机取巧的感觉,没有坚定的规划。
对,因为公司还年轻,这也是做生意应该有的风险,
不过我还没到那程度淡这些。 可能我也不是做生意的料吧。
我好想大声尖叫啊,我怎么把自己搞成如此,
不知何时每天睡不好,休息不够,真的不行了,好累好累。
下一步该如何,请给我指示吧!
2009 年 6 月 2 日
我决定辞职了。
在艺术之家已有三年,是时候换个新环境了。
我想我要学的已够多,应该到别处吸取不同的知识与学问。
学习虽然是无止境的,这还是要随着我的心做出决定。
我只想在艺术之家留下灿烂,精彩和值得怀恋的三年;
在我对这工作,艺术与人生的热诚消失之前。
2009 年 6 月 3 日
我终于做出了决定,向老板提出请辞。
说的过程,我很不安,说了后我整晚的心情非常低落。
当然有许多不舍,但为了我的健康,我必定这样做。
三年的时间就要结束了,这会是我永远的回忆,
我在第一份工作的毕业证书。 感谢的话就留到最后一天吧。
这是一个寒风细雨的十二月。有着跟家人吵架的愤怒,有着像好友般的同事离去,有着推积如山累积的工作,有着各种
各样的不愉快与压力。这已逐渐造成一个完全不一样的我,我既然变得这么情绪化,应该把大家吓坏了吧。你说这叫长
大了,我想这叫开窍吧。感谢你们陪我度过这段沮丧与低落的日子。如果在这期间,有说了过分的话,有不小心伤害到
任何人,我很抱歉并在此说声对不起。你放心,我这脆弱的心很快就会康复,变回原型,做回原来纯真与开朗的自己。
接下来,工作压力可能会不断增加,不过我知道会有你们的支持与陪伴。这在我身边围绕的关怀与爱心已变成最好的推
动力。我一定时时刻刻牢记在心。谢谢你们。
有陽光 有流水 還有微風吹
該如何面對 這未知的一切
讓自己的思緒沈澱 隨著天色的改變
心情的外衣也要多加一件
這些對 那些好 我想追 我想逃
其實我也害怕 可不可以就這樣停下來
我要多一點時間好讓我再想一想
隔著玻璃窗 我早已沈醉在藍色的街
有寂寞 有笑語 還有看不見的雪
該如何整理 這忙亂的城市
還有我的心事 躲在十二月熱鬧的夜
我只要一個人安安靜靜地
什麼對 什麼好 不要問 不要猜
不要太靠近我 可不可以勇敢地停下來
我要多一點空間好讓我再想一想
(取自于Ikan Bilis的Blog)
我是一只咸鱼 不想承认 也不能否认
不要同情我笨 又夸我天真 还梦想著翻身
咸鱼就算翻身 还是只咸鱼 输得也诚恳
至少到最后 我还有咸鱼 不腐烂的自尊
我没有任何天分 我却有梦的天真
我是傻 不是蠢 我将会证明用我的一生
我如果有梦 有没有错 错过才会更加明白 明白坚持是什么?
我如果有梦 梦要够疯 够疯才能变成英雄 总会有一篇我的传说
我不好也不坏 不特别出众 我只是敢不同
我的人生就是一错再错 错完了再从头
也许放弃掉一些 活得更轻松 我却不再是我
我不愿一生晒太阳吹风 咸鱼也要有梦
有一天有我的天空
作我的英雄 在我的天空 我知道你懂 知道你会懂
--- 我 。生活 。梦想 。选择 ---
me to discuss about their wedding solemnisation. We ended up with a quarrel. I was fuming for the first time in office
or I should say to anyone these years. The ego, proud male chauvinist kept trying to prove himself right, raised his
voice and blamed me for whatever he could think of. Clever enough, he found my GM's number and complained to him about the matter. Both my GM and boss are sensible people, instead of blaming me, they gave me a lot of moral support. Not that I was not at fault. The only thing I am wrong was to raise my voice too. Sorry I can't help. This ill-mannered guy was so rude to my GM. He even asked my GM whether he is the correct person to speak to and requested for compensation. NO WAY!!! My GM replied that we did nothing wrong that we need to compensate him. Whatever. Thanks Shiuan for taking over this case from me.
我是莫人。
假日下午, 快速公路, 三连车祸
无知少女, 不知好歹, 撞上毫车
野蛮太太, 紧跟后头, 连环撞上
感受两撞, 急忙下车, 察看究竟
三车乘客, 无人受伤, 平安无事
事发过后, 少女太太, 含冤叫苦
少女倾诉, 莫人超速, 快速行驶
太太则说, 莫人缓慢, 防碍交通
两人口共, 前后矛盾, 不成正比
问心无愧, 无须多说, 抄下车牌
车子无碍, 莫人继续, 一天活动
事发隔天, 连累莫人, 要去修车
现在车子, 停在车厂, 不能驾驶
莫人无奈, 只好听话, 乘坐地铁。
应获得副。

My doctor is now my good friend. It has never occur to me being such a sicko. I truly believe in fortune-telling now. According to the Chinese fortune-teller, those who are born in the year of pig have the worst health in Year 2007. Likewise, looking at horoscope, those who are Sagittarians have the unfittest health too. Coincidently, I belong to both. Hurray!!!
Home, Work, Eat, Sick. It's my current lifestyle. So all my Japan stories will need to be on hold. Probably, it will become history. Some archeologists will dig and discover my dairy beside my corpse a thousand years later. They might
write my stories then.
SICKO!!!
ひつよう時、きみがどこにいる。
Even when combating the enemies, one still has to eat and rest. So my troop had our steamboat dinner at Marina
Bay. Merriment didn't end so early. Some entertainment activities after the meal are essential. With a group of organised friends, everything were well-planned beforehand. Chill-out at PS Secret Recipt and watched Spiderman 3.
I quite like it leaving out the too-fast action. Comparing to the past two, the plot has more development.

And my purchase.

From Top (Left to Right):
Gwen Stefani - The Sweet Escape, The Pussycat Dolls - PCD
Introducing Joss Stone, Ultimate R&B
Namie Amuro - Queen of Hip Hop, Akon - Konvicted
8 hours after the steamboat session at Marina Bay, my whole body still stink. Argh. Irritating. I am going to rinse myself for an hour.
Till then.
strong winds that I experienced. Gosh, it takes me 8 days to announce my return. I am extremely engage with my work when I am back. This is the sacrifice of going away for 16 days. And the additional 2-days MC (caught a cold, fever and cough) when I first touched down to this little red dot.
A big thank you to all my colleagues especially Yvonne and Alvin who have been struggling with the extra workload.
They have been saying they "miss" me a lot. Haha =p Well, I am back now to share the burden. Apart from my absent, our "dearest" colleague; an irritating taichi master aka c*** sucker left the company for the better. Most of us are kind of happy but annoyingly we have to clear his shit. The most vexing part is that he left us with a lot of unorganised and incomplete work. Drat.
All in all, I must say I treasure this 16-days of travelling in Japan. An enjoyable one with many high and low moments. I already miss Japan and I promise I will definitely enter that piece of my favourite land again. Coming up soon, the highlights of my adventure trip.
Three more hours before I leave home for the land of the rising sun. A plan from last year finally coming true. I hope the effort of our research will make this trip a superb one. Certainly it will as we have a hero friend who helped us in the planning stage. エガクン、ありがとございます。(correct me if my Japanese spelling is wrong)
The feel of excitement came only this afternoon when many wishes me bon voyage. I love this awaiting feeling. It's time for a break; to leave this stressful island (though I still love Singapore) to enjoy myself in Japan. The spectacular view
of Sakura, the smell of the fresh air and the touch of cold breeze is near.
Tonight, I am taking a plane (SQ 656) from Changi Airport Terminal 2 at 1am. This will declare the beginning of my Japan Trip. Hurray!!! My dearest family, friends and colleagues, I shall see you in 16 days time.
桜の絶景、さわやかでいい匂いな空気を吸って、日本で楽しんでる。 ~in the land of rising sun

Maybe I did not prioritise my work properly?
Maybe I put too much time on certain project?
Maybe I did not work hard enough?
Maybe I did not do as much as they expect?
Maybe is just about following the motion?
Did I?
Maybe my mindset is wrong?
Maybe some things need two hands to clap?
Too many maybe-s, who knows the answer. I don't.
I believe painting ain't difficult. I believe painting a piece of wall to white ain’t so difficult. NO, I was all wrong. This would be my first and LAST attempt. Never again. I only need to spend a few hundred dollars to employ someone to paint my room. Not like now, taking up Hansen and my 2 full days to complete the walls of my room, used 20 litre of white paint, sacrificed many hours of our sleep and got allergy again. It was an exhausting 2 days.

Hansen and my brother were removing my old cupboard from my room.
I came to realize my previous color was coated with glossy surface; therefore it couldn’t absorb the white paint. Damn, that was the reason why we need to paint and repaint again. Fortunately, Hansen had some experiences as he just renovated his whole house. He even volunteered to help me. Thank you. You rox man.

My messy room.
Hopefully, I will survive the next week till all my furniture are up. Don't remind me of all the cleaning and clearing up.
too lazy to explain, too hard for you to understand. Being very fortunate, I have this bunch of superb and fun-loving colleagues that I should be able to flip more pages of my calender. Haa =p

Work is piling up.

Cheryl turned green.
Today, I am given a-day MC to stay at home. Yea, MC again!!! My tummy started to ache on Sunday and it got worst yesterday. I was too weak by then. Toilet visits for the whole day. I thought I would be fine after resting at home. But no *shake head* no, I couldn't take it and visited a docter. I suspect it should be the "rojak" food I ate on Saturday
gathering. Cause Diana got it too. She even got herself injection. It must be the oysters that we both ate. It was too painful till I did not really sleep for the whole night. I was even too weak to walk. No joke man.

Trust me, all the papers I received from all sources that stated about the pig year is true. I must be more careful.
*cross fingers*



路在前方,如何选择,自己掌控。
--- 在迷失中找寻自己 ---